urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp this cold winter morning neardeathexp 2005-07-19T22:26:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:50236 2005-07-19T22:26:52Z 2005-07-19T22:26:52Z bigwig i can see it in your eyes. when you walk away...<br /><br /><br />vermont was amazing. i want to live there minus the lack of air cond. i had so much fun. i stayed on a ranch and hung out with coyotes. good times. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:49991 2005-07-12T08:20:25Z 2005-07-12T08:20:25Z the ataris its that time again. <br /><br /><br /><br />i want someone to make me smile. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:49716 2005-07-08T00:19:18Z 2005-07-08T00:19:18Z ataris ok. moving out tonight. mom doesnt like my mods. i got my vertical snake bites done. andrew hooked it up. this sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:49409 2005-06-30T09:08:23Z 2005-06-30T09:08:23Z a5a, alk3, and jew. i remember our fav. night. i wish life was easy. my life is full of ups and downs. right now im in a huge down, but my friends are doing a good job of keeping me occupied. i dont tell them anything. i just right it all down. some of its in here, not all. sry folks cant share all the good stuff with yall. thats right i said yall. today scott got his web done along with THE BEST TATTOO EVER! but we dont talk about that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:49276 2005-06-26T04:27:27Z 2005-06-26T04:27:27Z across five aprils was fun. calico system was awsome. burning season is sweet. i had fun. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:48985 2005-06-22T00:53:22Z 2005-06-22T00:53:22Z im blonde once again urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:48670 2005-06-18T04:19:16Z 2005-06-18T04:19:16Z rx bandits my computer doesnt work right. so if im really your friend, you have my number so use it. o btw, i have a roommate. the cheese moved in with me and my mom. its working out. we both got jobs and my mom seems happier. i got my wisdom teeth out and i cant feel anything. im all loopy due to the fact i take like 12 pills a day. whatever. girls girls girls. wow. never ever get a girlfriend, theres no point. i love TB more than anything. i miss simba. i love my family. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:48409 2005-06-14T05:18:05Z 2005-06-14T05:18:05Z fynntroll girls hate me<br />im a man whore?<br />im sunburnt<br />think whatever you want about me<br />i know the truth<br />im hungry (all the time)<br />i cant be serious for more than 5 mins. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:48338 2005-06-11T08:52:33Z 2005-06-11T08:52:33Z rx bandits i could have told you that.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />o yeah. everyone knows that your a whore. if you think this is about you your wrong. dont take it that way. im just saying...wow, tonight opened my eyes to a lottttt. scott was right. i see that now. it took me a couple months but i knew in the back of my mind it would prevail. summer is gonna be off the hizzy. o yeah i hate niggers. grow up.<br />swastika fart. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:48112 2005-06-09T08:46:06Z 2005-06-09T08:46:06Z the faint i need me a job. ive been looking. im searching a new found smile. something out the ord and diff that will make me happy for more than just a day or two.<br /><br /><br />im tired. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:47685 2005-06-03T19:03:21Z 2005-06-03T19:03:21Z like how do you know that your faking it? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:47554 2005-05-31T04:56:41Z 2005-05-31T04:56:41Z we had to put simba down on thursday. ive never felt shittier in my entire life. i love you. i cry every night now. theres no one at the foot of my bed. none of my other cats will come near me. im a horrible person. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:47242 2005-05-26T05:58:40Z 2005-05-26T05:58:40Z if you havent already heard, the best cat ever (simba)is really sick. his liver is failing and is in pain. the last thing i would ever think about doing, i might have to do. tomorrow is the final decison wether to put him down or let them cut him open. for 12 years simba has slept at the foot of my bed. always keeping my feet warm. my feet are cold now. he was the first thing my family got when my dad left. best change we've ever made. i love him more than anything in my life. i would give up everything i have for him. i sing to him everyday, talk to him, tell him i love him and trying to get him to eat/drink. i will miss him. keep your head up high. things will get better i guess.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:47103 2005-05-22T04:53:52Z 2005-05-22T04:53:52Z alk3/hwm split job.band.friends.im not sure of what to do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:46640 2005-05-15T06:25:16Z 2005-05-15T06:25:16Z mix summers coming. whos ready to bro-down with us this summer. gots us a new guitar player. hes good peoples. free tattoo coming up in a few days. same shop new mngmnt. stoked. stoked. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:46354 2005-05-08T07:48:05Z 2005-05-08T07:48:05Z mix cd im know who my friends are. at least i know so far. ive found them. miklas,baurer,scottL,MikeL, and my best friend my bro-otheren.<br /><br />its feels good to know they are there. ive been a lot of places lately. seen things and just had a lot of fun. summer is coming up. im stoked. yes thats right STOKED! hellfest,warped tour with peta. shows shows shows. i like the method man cd and chingy. that is all for now.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />sex,drugs and choking to death on your own vomit... isnt that what being a rocktar is about? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:46239 2005-05-06T04:34:27Z 2005-05-06T04:34:27Z yo. baurer's here. its pretty official that he brought me crackers. hes sweet. but he did eat them all. im typing this as he talks and i cant keep up. im out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:45969 2005-05-04T07:36:04Z 2005-05-04T07:36:04Z ppppppppppppppp urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:45622 2005-05-03T02:35:09Z 2005-05-03T02:35:09Z AN i dont like mike yerardi. i tell him something and he goes turns it around. i hate little kids like him. grow up doods. and ive gone from straight edge... to hating more ppl that do drugs. im not total SXE 4L or anything. its just really stupid when i get drunk fone calls from girls calling me names and trying to say i play them or i stopped talking to them. or i did this or i did that. if you have a problem comfront me, dont listen to what you hear. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />im laughing. your not. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:45505 2005-04-30T06:03:08Z 2005-04-30T06:03:08Z comeback kid went to bamboozle. its sucked asshole. all the bands sounded shitty. except anterrabae. they sounded ok. and acceptance is pretty sweet still. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:45292 2005-04-27T01:32:20Z 2005-04-27T01:32:20Z plow here are some things that i like. reply if you agree or disagree.<br /><br /><br />+ my true friends<br />+ my brother<br />+ smiling<br />+ being drug free for two years now<br />+ having a great mom<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />- fake people<br />- ppl that brag about getting fucked up<br />- having the same great mom kicking me out of my house<br />- being sad<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />its that time of year again. this is the time i get sick. ive already had strep throat. i hope i just get something terminal. not really but you get what im saying. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:45033 2005-04-23T06:15:24Z 2005-04-23T06:15:24Z i feel like my world is falling apart. not the band, but everything else. im not myself anymore. i need my life the way it was 5 years ago. i see myself making a turn for the worst. help. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:44674 2005-04-21T23:32:21Z 2005-04-21T23:32:21Z arty lange dvd i hope your happy with what your doing. goodbye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:44302 2005-04-20T00:14:26Z 2005-04-20T00:14:26Z et i never met eyes like yours. evergreen terrace os effin sweet. we stayed down the shore last night. one of the best nights of my life. i was naked ...80% of the time. i didnt get really any sleep again. o well. good times. im glad i dont drink or smoke. ill let other people do it. plus since i dont...its more for them.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />my little icon things is sweet too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:neardeathexp:44258 2005-04-16T15:09:41Z 2005-04-16T15:09:41Z tjs last night was bobs last show with templeton. i cried on the inside. but today when i heard about my brother being up all night crying...i cant hold it in anymore. we're gonna miss you bob.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so lets just admit its been a beautiful run.